Don’t continue to let the world miss out on you. We begin to beat ourselves up and join in with others who are frustrated with our behaviors. And then we top it all off with shame and guilt, frustration and disgust, and the sadness of feeling alone. We may begin to act sneaky, hiding away not only our drugs and alcohol, but our emotions and behaviors. It makes us do things we thought we would never do. Maybe if they could just understand that there is a part of you that is not wanting to use and also understand how strong the addicted brain can become. You are still there wishing someone would take a chance and wishing someone would try to understand. Somewhere deep down you are still you, still there, wishing others could see beyond the using, see beyond the behaviors. The single most important thing you lost when you became addicted was you. The idea of adding in having fun and growing things that you value. The idea of adding in life purpose and goals. The idea of adding in healthy relationships. Yes, you will lose the desire to use eventually with the idea of ADDING IN things in your life that will eventually become more desirable. The process of healing is also not about deprivation. We have given in to the ideas and beliefs that it’s too late for us or that we’ve already missed out on too much. It feels that we just won’t be able to do it, that it’s too hard.
Letter to my addiction how to#
Of course, when we are beginning to learn how to heal it feels very much that way. You want more attention from me and I also need more of you to feel the way I did when we first met. The process of healing is not about having to break yourself down. Dear Addiction, I have noticed you have become a bit demanding lately. And that is exactly what it is-FEAR! The fear is what keeps us from understanding and believing that we can change. I even let my other relationships disintegrate because of how strongly I felt towards you. My pain seemed to go away, and I didn’t worry about life.
Letter to my addiction free#
For much of our time together, I felt happy and free of other desires. In my work, I’ve experienced this fear over and over. Dear Addiction For a time, it felt like all I needed in the world was you. The idea that you can be free of the baggage, the shame, the guilt, the negativity. Now let’s go back to that weightlessness, it’s hard for some to even imagine the possibility. Beliefs that tell us we aren’t worth it, that we aren’t good enough. Beliefs that limit our growth and expansion. Let’s go there for a second and imagine not feeling the weight of our addicted body, the weight of our negative thoughts, and most importantly the weight of our old beliefs. I Don’t Believe in Love I watched you hurt mom. Every day I struggle to find confidence in myself. What you did will forever have an impact on me that can’t be reversed. It weighs us down from realizing our goals, our purpose, our life! I imagine recovery as a metaphorical process of learning to unzip from our physical bodies, letting go of old habits, old beliefs, addictions and emotional baggage and stepping out freely into the world. I know that your addiction is a disease and not something you can control, but I hurt. I have felt a strong pull towards helping those enthralled in addiction to heal and literally shed the weight of addiction.
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